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Tuesday, February 28, 2006


These feelings got to go, this pain just takes its toll

Prove it to the world you're perfect, your choking on your pride.

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PLEASE BE NICE & FILL THIS UP FOR ME. :D )

Tmr's our 2nd. Nothing to be excited about. Baby isn't happy either. I can't say I am. Part of me is happy 'cos afterall we've been together for 59 days. Another part of me isn't 'cos baby isn't. Well, like what they say, nothing much to celebrate about what. Second month only ma, excited for what? Other people two years leh. Ugh okay then. ):

Fuck rashes. The rashes is getting on my nerves & it's fucking itchyyyyyy. I can't scratch them la, it's gonna get worse & I don't wanna look ugly even though it's not on my face. =/ It's on my neck, yuck.


I did this yesterday. :D

School was fun tday, it's better than a lot other days. Had hymns singing in the morning, Heart Of Worship. :D I like. Then had PE. Turtle was being lame, as usual. She's making us do worksheet next PE lessons 'cos Long Term MC girls don't do anything during PE lessons she say. Whatever luh. The damn worksheet's about daily food or whatever. Then we had SS, copied notes & went for CME. CME was fun, much better than other day's. Did on Marriage Vows. :D the class was being uber cute. Esp Sarah F. & Shangari.

Sarah& Shangari : WWUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! (with that ghostly feel)
someone: there's ghost in the class.
(what the crap!)

Miss Toh: Ok let me get someone to read this, uh Sarah Fong?
Sarah: HUH? I'm Rachael Fong
Shangari: She's Rachael Fong la teacher
Miss Toh: Oh really? But I thought I saw your nametag is Sarah Fong?
Sarah: My sister la. I take wrongly. (she's uttering nonsense)
Miss Toh: From which class?
Sarah: 5A
Miss Toh: Oh okay, then Rachael or Sarah Fong please read
Sarah: Ask Janet to read la
(i've got retarded classmates. :D)

Had Maths after that. :D I don't understand the stupid graphs, wtff. But anyhows, it's not tested in the test tmr. :D YAY. Recess then Art. Omg pressurized, I am. Did few sketches, like finally! Hahah I was so into the drawing suddenly, I don't know why. Had assembly after that. This group of church band came to perform. I like the brass, the guitar & the drumset - not them. Hahah, the Youth Rally thingy, Lynette already told me about it but I don't think I'll be able to go lah. Sorry Lynette. ):

Head straight down to canteen for lunch. Went back to the Art Studio for extra Art lesoons. We shouldn't have stayed, fucker. Miss Teh weren't in the studioooooooo. She was happily having staff meeting. Ugh. & had a false fire alarm. Rofl, we didn't want to gather at the court 'cos it's effin' hot. But then again, someone pointed out something. "Ay go lah, then we don't have to draw so much." Hahah, so we all went. The sunlight & heat kills, ugh. Went back after 15mins. The damn alarm rung at the moment when I had the *click* to draw nicely. So irritating. My inspiration to draw was gone after that. Left the place at around 5.45pm. Miss Teh didn't come down at all please. Did 7 sketches :D I'm proud of myself(although it isn't very nice).

Went Compass to get stuffs & went home. :D Supposed to have tuition but acks, Miss Tan isn't feeling well. & I've got Maths test tmr. ): No, I can do it. Yes I know I can! The rashes is pissing me off. Ugh it's damn itchy but I can't scratch 'cos I know it's gonna make it go bad. ): CRIES how baby how?

REPLIES!

Michelle, Hahha I did put okay. See my source lah, I did put. But I don't know why it just doesn't show. The codes are right what. =
Eilis, Ayyyyyy, really ah! Hahah I shall smile more, hello more to you then. Hahah. If she ever bullies you, you gotta tell me okay. She always bully me lah so yuh. Hahah. Hugs! See you in school again tmr. :D
Eliza, Now I know I've got El & Eliza. :D Ayyyyyyy, El & El. Hahaha! Thanks babe. I commented in your blog again yuh? Hugs you tight. You've got me okay Eliza? :D
Camilla, YAY Fel isn't the only one's who's special now. Hahah. Cheers to you babe! I hope everything's going well for you. Hugs!
Ning, Exams are stressing me out, taking too much of my time. Fook. Elmo's adorable, yuh man. :D hugss!


Like a heart attack, I know I can't turn back.
<3,



7:30 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


Sunday, February 26, 2006


In love with the wrong kind


Click to enlarge. :)

I was bored in the afternoon so I did the editing. Elmo really mean a lot to me. =) -hugs&kisses el.

Everything's fucking screwed now. Mom & Dad just yelled&shouted at Zel, at the top of their voices. Girlfriend & I aren't talking. Wtffffffffffffffffffff. Just finished my art research. I get a lot of nonsense calls tday, fuckers. !@#$% Stressed.

So when all these happens, El's the only one I have with me & I know she wouldn't give up on me. Whatever I say to her, she won't let it out. :D (obviously, if she would.. that'd be scary huh.) But sometimes I wish El would speak & say something to me to make me feel better. Sometimes I wish El had strong arms so she'd hug me & tell me everything would be alright, with her around. Awww, I just wish that El would be someone. ):

Yeah man, thanks for all these.
Since when fault isn't mine.

Yawns, I'm off to sleep.
Goodnight world.


9:49 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )




Excuse me while I fall apart


You're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked.

Friday, school was kinda short, time flew. Chemistry lesson was fun, did group work & done flash cards! :D Ours was damn flowery, hee. PE was fun too, though I don't take PE. Mich & I talked a lot about the past & present. Annoying people still annoys me us. Literature after that. Miss Yeo gave us work & left to meet a parent. & obviously we end up talking about this particular someone. Hahah, Pei Lin told us & Serene's laughter is contagious, totally. Recess was uber hilarious. Y'all, Jency John! Hahah. Funniest recess ever. We're the Jency Johns & Joncy Jens! :D Retarded shit.

After recess was Chinese! Lin lao shi gave us zuo wen test. I chose something about the day that is very special to me or something like that. Hahah I wrote about my imaginary valentine's day. So retarded, I swear. I kept talking rubbish 'cos I wanna hurry finish(while I'm typing this, I just turned my back & I'm facing the dining table & know what? GRIZEL TAN TXIN EE is half naked, happily eating on the damn table, sitting like some ah pek. -slaps forehea,. Nice sister I have) it off & study for SS test later on. Sass & I handed in the work & end up not studying. We took masking tape & started drawing & sticking on SPO. Hahah.
CD period & the stupidiestestest thing happened. We had a quiz on school rules. How lame can the school get sometimes, I really wonder. Rushed off to get a drink & up to the hall for SS test. I tried my best, I've been using my common sense to answer the questions. Hahah.

Bestaye was rushing off to get home & meet Ksq. So we decided cab to compass then bestaye go back on her own. I went home immediately, get my stuff & off to study with Sass. In the lift, down to first floor, the happiest, shocking-est, surprised-est thing happened. Baby was standing right there. Fuck man I was fucking happy. Thanks baby, for the pleasent surprise. muacks! Off to Compass. Ate at the food court, Nette & Shans came. Qiaos came later too, she's having lunch with Kwai. the Land gave Sass a surprise too, later on at BK. Baby's friends were there too. :) We were supposed to study but we end up fooling around.

Sent baby off to the MRT station & headed to school. Stupid PTM. >): Everything's so screwed la. Went back home, ate dinner & baby called. =/ Told her everything. Things can't change overnight. I'm gonna try harder to mend things back. Afterall, they are my parents. & I don't deny, sometimes I'd tell myself how much they have done for me & I love them despite the bad times.

Yesterday, studying session with Qiaos, Mich & Sassy at Airport. Met them at around 2plus & took 27 down to the Airport. I almost fell asleep in the bus please. An hour bus ride, I think. Stopped at the wrong stop, walked all the way to the skytrain station & walked all the way to Mac's. Ate & hit the books after that. Did maths with Mich, Sass & Qiaos did literature. Sass hardly talk 'cos of her painful ulcer. She was exceptionally quiet which is so uber weird. She just kept doing her work. Once she start talking, her ulcer would hurt badly. She used her phone to type what she wanna say or just write it out. Poor thing. >:( Sass, I hope it's better now. Take care okay? <3 Some stranger texted Mich & I started making fun of that person. Damn funny! Hahah. Took stupid photos & vid! Still in the cam, I'll upload them soon. :) I left around 6plus to go Raffles City. :D

Took the train. Fuck luh now I know how baby feels when she's alone & tired in the train which is gonna be a long ride with no seats & it's uber crowded. Yuck, some people just don't know how badly they needed a shower. =X It sucks, omg. Alighted at City Hall, finally outta that smelly train, eeyur. Met them all at Body Shop. The whole entire Body Shop is filled with the whole group of us & their voice are super loud. Auntie Uncle Alex & her his girlfriend, her sister & two kids, Val, Allan, Auntie Anna, Pearlyn & Natalyn, Sally & Rhys + Mom, Dad, Zel & I. Which is really a lot of people la. The shop has got limited space la 'cos of the displays & al. Bought my Raspberry lippy! <3 Thanks mama. :) Had dinner at Cafe Cartel. Pepper Fish Pasta & Caramel Frappe! :D:D:D Yummy, I want frappe now. Heehee. After dinner, Val came over to talk to me about Miss Teh thingy & al. She told me about what Mom said to her too. Whee. =D I love her la, she's really nice. Heh. Left the place around 10plus & reached home around 10.30pm. Hit the books again after, didn't get to talk to baby at all. ):

Staying home all day tday to study & do my art, hopefully. Just managed to finish up my lunch. Baby called just now(!!) & my heart was beating so fast for some reason & I reallyreally don't know why. =\ Like finally we get to talk. But now she's off to catch few winks. Gonna wake her up at four. :)

I'[l reply the comments.. today. :D Sorry babes, I took such a long time uh.

REPLIES!

PRUNELLA, I've got a lot of homework too okay! Two literature essays, 2 graphs, 9+2 Trigo qns & one topical Fractorisation exercise. YOU SEE YOU SEE! ):
Meiyang, Thanks! I love it too, my fav. colours. :D
Tammy, hey babesssssssss. :)
Angie, 11th March babe!
Eilis, Hahah I always see you in school! Hahah happy Eilis. xD

I'm gonna link Meiyang, Tammy, Angie & Eilis up now. :D





It's hard to be your scar,
<3,


3:25 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


Thursday, February 23, 2006


from Sweet Beginnings to Bitter Endings.

Short entry will do. :) I wanted to blog 'cos I was bloody fuckedup just now. Baby stopped texting me & no phone calls for the past three hrs & I don't know where the fuck is she. But she called before blogger sign me in. Hahah. Okay so I'm better now. :D

Today isn't the best day either. Sigh I've done so many wrongs & did so little rights. =\ Mrs Soon wasn't in school for the past two days & Lin lao shi say she's hospitalized. English was stupid, really. Turtle Chow came in & said a lot of rubbish la okay. Ugh. Chinese was just writing, did nothing much actually. SS was boring. Annoying people really annoys me badly, fucker. Quit saying others when you're saying yourself. Maths was short, I don't like. I'm falling in love with Maths already. I don't mind just doing Maths all day. Heehee. Two periods of English after recess was okay, more chattings with Xiuwen. :) Did a little of Maths. Chem was okay, boring but I paid attention. :D TEEHEE.

I'm int he stupid Chinese remedial thingy 'cos I scored 53/100 for FYE last year. Shen lao shi say 55 & below then must stay. Asshole, 10% discount also don't wanna give me. Shitballs. Now I've to stay back every Tuesday to Thursday. Please don't take up my Monday & Friday. ): Sass was with me, Qiaos & Bestaye went for Netball.

Michelle, I'm so sorry about this afternoon. I'm so sorry! I was being really forgetful. Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry! ): Forgive me lah okay. I know ______ made you pissed enough & here comes another me. Sorry. ): Geek will cry if Nerd don't talk to Geek. Then Geek got no friendddddddddddddddddd. Then Geek wanna frown like Frowning Face. >:(

I'm still annoyed with that ______. Thanks so much for being such a annoying thing in school. You 'brightened up' my school hours. -rolls eyes I saw something on friendster & I'm effin' jealous. UGH. Tmr's PTM & I'm scared. I wonder what they'll tell mummy. I shall bride them, lmao.

Everyone, thanks for commenting & I really appreciate it. :) Continue doing so & I'll reply them soon okay. Hughug. <3





You're so good at pretending everything is alright,
<3,


8:54 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


Wednesday, February 22, 2006


You're what makes it home that I'll come back to

If I Let You Go by Westlife & Every Time I Close My Eyes by Babyface's on the playing list, repeating. I'm feeling so crushed, I know I'm missing baby badly. ): It's her absense, that's why I'm feeling this way. But it's okay, studies are far more important that anything else, including me. I'm glad she's studying.

But if I let you go, I will never know

What my life would be holding you close to me,
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

I cried myself to sleep last night. Terrible night, I swear. I really didn't know what to do. = Baby, thanks for being there. Despite falling asleep on the phone, ON ME. =/

School's as usual, really boring but lessons were simple. I got my first booking by Mrs Cherry Lim. 'Cos I forgot about my damn bio file, fucker. = No one to blame but me. Three periods of Maths but it was fun. I'm starting to love Maths. Three periods, did quite a lot. Cumulative graphs, simultaneous equations. :D Funfunfun, I like. Mrs Ong gave a lot of work & I just finished the daily three questions we're supposed to do. YAY I'm so proud of myself please. Music on, pens up, brains work. :D Chinese was utterly boring, Bestaye & I just kept talking. Annoying people annoy us, ay bestaye? :] Had literature after that, in the library. I was practically falling sleep. =/ Had Maths SSS after school. Mich & I finished the worksheet first! :D Heh. Bestaye gave us a lift & Pamo & I alighted at Compass while Bestaye went home. Went Cold's Storage with Pam & went home. Talked to Mom about what happened already. I'm glad she understands. =) She said something that made me tear but I held back the tears. I'm sorry Daddy, I know I'm such a letdown. >:(


Piano-ed & ran back home to call baby & we didn't talked in the end. I rather she study than to waste time listening to all the rubbish I wanna say. Ugh. Did my work & online. =D Dinner was great. Heh. Dad isn't home yet. :/

Girl, I think that you’re truly something
And you’re, you’re every bit of a dream come true
With you baby, it never rains and it’s no wonder
The sun always shines when I’m near you
It’s just a blessing that I have found somebody like you.


I reallyreallyreally love this song. The lyrics are true. :) Unfeeling, still.

& no one's heart is strong enough to fix what happened here.
Mine isn't. =/ I don't wanna get used to be without you. It's bad, really bad. I'm not getting used to actually. I'm missing her bad. ): I hate exams. I don't wanna text her to disturb her. I don't wanna call & get her distracted. I don't want but I want. =/ RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. My daily dose leh? I keep telling myself everything's fine, I'll be all fine & good later. Nevermind, I guess I was just lying.


Not in the mood to do anything anyway. I shall go talk to Jace. =D




♥ White it out like Glittering Wax Butterflies.
<3,


8:18 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


Tuesday, February 21, 2006


Sunburned face & drunken father
Crying as she's carving in her flesh

Friday.
School was okay but after recess was terrible. Miss Teh saw my phone on the canteen table. She asked & I denied. She wanted to see me in private, so I did. I went to see her during CD period, while we were clearing the tables & chairs in the hall. Blahblahblah.. She talked about my artwork & ended the whole conversation, asking me to ask Mrs Soon about it. I didn't find her, but I know that she knew about it 'cos I saw Miss Teh talking to her. I left the school with the rest to.. I forgot where. But I think we went Hougang Mall for lunch, I can't remember.

Saturday & Sunday.
I was home all day on Saturday. Online all day & studied a little. Baby was out at her aunt's place. :) Sunday, I was home all day too. Showered & al, went online. Taught Tingshan her Language Arts(which is literature la) & english compo later on with Ning. :D Rofl, her compo's about singaporean Cinderella, Singalala. Damn hilarious. Hm, talked to Jace online. :D Hahah that retard! <3 Did Sarah's ahem thingy & her art. Did a little of mine. Printed everything & al. Went compass to collect Mrs Soon's cake. =D Really nice one okay! Strawberry sweetheart. :D Dinner, dined with the family! Aunts & uncles & cousins all there. =D Val's sick& she gotta go KL to work. ): Poor thing.

I swear I really love Sarah Lau Mui Khim a lot. She texted me & said, "Oh btw, do you need me to help you bring a extra phone & card tmr in case Miss Teh want?" Fuck la, I love her okay. She's so thoughtful, so sweet. Muacks, I love you many Sassy. <3 We'll have Love-Sassy-A-Lot day soon. :D

Monday.
200206 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHAWN & ZAERON! I'm starting to hate Monday. Monday blues, as usual. The thought of coming back to school & face all those shit, ugh so irritating. It just turns me off. Got the cake, brought it down to school. Mich & Qiaos were early. Persis gave the cake to one of the vendors for me, asked them to help us keep. Hahah. Art was boring, as usual. My name was called for at least 5 times. Thanks a lot, Art Teacher. Mrs Soon got the Jan/Feb/Mar babies a cake to celebrate it all together. & we got one for her. She was surprised. :D so we had a mini class party. A pity, I just put my camera into the drawer. Hahah. Miss Teh said something that got me really affected. I really don't know what she want from me. Can't she just spell it out or something? She likes going round the bush & make me think of what she really want from me. Ugh. Didn't touch the food in the end. =/ Sigh. Talked to Mrs Soon about it. She told me to face the consequences. Thanks Teacher, you're so much better. I love Mrs Soon, I really do. <3 Went to find Miss Teh after that, she was busy so I left the school. I went to meet baby outside school. I was lala-ing so much to her, while walking to cross over to take cab. Spent the day at Compass. :D

Today's the worst day of the week.
Everything just didn't go my way, since this morning. If I said that I'm fine, I'm just lying. I finally know something about Bearings! Omg. :D I'm starting to love Maths, a lot. Heh. Art was the worst. She put me right in front, right under her nose. Picked on me like more than fucking 10 times. I'm not the only one who feels this way. Every element & principal of design, she'd definitely call my name. She knows that I definitely don't have what she exactly want but she just call my name. Ugh I felt so fucking pissed, I teared. I can't possibly just cry there, lmao. & she asked me to see her again so I thought yeah I should see her, I don't wanna drag, I'll see her after the extra art lessons. She just yelled at me when I moved my things to the back, asking me where do I think I'm going. I'm seriously pissed. I always sit there suring this Art thingy. Qiaos & some others told her that I've always been sitting there. & she just HMPH & asked us to hurry up 'cos we're late for assembly. When I walked outta her room, I swear I got the urge to just break down there. Aiya, I can't control my emotions la okay. = HAHAHA. Had Monitor's Investiture. Congrats to all who were invested tday! <3 Then we were late for the extra lessons & she yelled again. She said we''re gonna pay her back one more extra session. Excuse me Art Teacher, we were only late for 5 effin' minutes & I've to return you 2.25hours! Ugh. She went for teacher;s meeting & before that she asked me to see her. She came back & I went to see her. Blahblahblah.. & she took the phone. Told me tons of.. things & yuh all these just reflect bad on myself. But whatever I just wanna get over this. =/ Home after that, dinner & I'm here. I'm done with my Bearings worksheeeet! Wheeeee!

I swear I hate exam periods. Look what baby's doing now. Rushing her revisions. ): I don't like. & she's feeling stressed up, I think. 10/15 chapters undone by Thurs, what the fuck. SP very niao can! Hahah cheenaaaaaa. :D Baby trust me, have confidence in yourself, you can do it. I'm always here, I'll stand by you for all time, good& bad okay? Muahs. =D

Now I look like the one not studying. =/ I've got Biology test tmr lah. >:(

PS: This entry is not detailed. HAHAHA. Ask me la & I'll tell you. :D

( HELP ME FILL THIS UP PLEASE, THANKYOU :D )

I'll reply the comments another time, I'm really sorry. I'm off to study for Biologyyyyyyyyy. Hahahah! :D (I'm still pissed.) (but I'm pretending like nothng happened.)




Reminding me of the last nights with you,
<3,



9:14 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


Thursday, February 16, 2006


Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving

Blueprints.











dotphoto.com is being really irritating. D: they don't allow me to upload the pictures, sicko. I shall keep trying. Stupid dotphoto. I can't find any other online photo album that wouldn't delete my pictures. Imagestation is bad, Flickr is slow. How? ):

I hate Thursday, like I always say on every Thurs's entry. School was effin' boring. We did arguementative essays for English, boring shit in the morning. I got 3/15 for my SS test & I'm sitting with Miss Pamela L. xD She likes pinching me 'cos she say it'd keep me awake. >:@ Pfft, I'd do the same to her la, haha! Maths was good. Mrs Ong was being uber nice, she gave us more time to finish up the bearings & simultaneous worksheet. :D Chinese was as boring as ever but only one period tday. I failed my Chemistry test. >:( Sigh.

Had Art after school. Ate lunch & went up to the lab. Went online, ROFL. Talked to Jace & Baby! :D Whee. Miss Teh was so pissed when she knows that we used MSN to chat. She wanted us to admit & all, tons of drama. She walked out of the com lab & wanted us to admit when we go downstairs. Persis helped all of us to delete our email address from the comp, thanks Pers! :D The sec5s went to admit in the end & they managed to leave the school early, so we did the same! Hahah if not I'm sure Miss Teh's gonna keep us for long. She came outta the general office & went "ay, why you all still here?" Which means we've already been dismissed. -.- But anyhows, we still apologized & told her the truth. =D

Went to meet Baby at Compass after that. Sorry hons, I'm late again. ): Cabbed to Compass. Went to print the pictures my maid wanted, went Popular & get my stuff. After that, accompanied Pam to get dinner, Home! :D

Baby, thanks for coming down tday. Muahs!
I love you. :D

I'll reply the comments another time okay.

I'm fucking tired.
Yawns.





Listen now just try and see me please don't leave me now,
<3,



8:07 PM
Mend this broken thing./
( )


Tuesday, February 14, 2006


Forever was what I saw in your eyes.

Happy Valentine's Day.
Love & Happiness. (:

14th Feb, Valentine's day. I've got a valentine this year & I'm happy. :) Thanks to all those who got me little notes, cookies, chocos & sweets! Really thoughtful of yall. :) I'll make it up okay. Love yall! :D

Mom, thanks for screwing up but I still love you. < /3

School was okay tday. Art was cancelled. :D SarahF, Alex, Jasmit & Jayshree went to ask Mrs Das if we could skip Art tday & she said if we make it up on Thurs, she'd allow. :D HEEHEE. She can be nice too, sometimes. Decided to meet baby first & we'll go town to catch a movie. Hahah. School ended uber late 'cos there was some catwalk shit going on. Baby I'm sorry I made you wait for so damn fucking long. ): they only release us at 2.35pm, rushed all the way out to meet baby. Shyan, Mich & Sass went back home. Waited for Pam to finish clearing up the f&n room. Called her up & she was crying. Stupid blackie security guard caught her using her phone. Chey, stupid asshole. She was just merely rejecting the fucken call. Yeh & that Miss Geetha's damn fucking irritating. I hate her. Went back to the general office to look for Pam, some parent was there for this cellphone matter too. I think SJC is stupid. They think it's working but fucking hell, no. Stupid Geetha, she was uber rude to the parent okay. >:@ Miss Geetha bought Pam up to the Lib, we followed. All the teachers are having meeting, I guess. Mrs Ng came out & talked to her. Talked for quite awhile, Pam took away her simcard & left. Left around 3.30pm. I'm sorry again, baby I keep making you wait. >): Bestaye complained about Miss Geetha, rofl. xP Loves it. She got busted really badly. Compass after that, had lunch. Bestaye went to find Carla & we went Lib. Borrowed books. Took pictures! Went home.

Hey baby, I love you. :) Heh. I hope you like the gift, there's another part to it but 'cos I'm too damn forgetful, I left it at home. =/ I'll get it for you tmr. Heh. Don't compare about the gift, I'm okay with it. Really, it's the thought that counts baby. They don't get what I've got from you for Vday, don't compare okay? I'm fine with it, I just hope you'd love what I gave you. For the past 6 weeks, you've been really great honey, a wonderful lover, an amazing hubs. Thanks a lot for all that. Thanks for being there when I needed you most. Nothing could be better than having you as my partner & slowly we grow old together. :) We've got through quite a bit; pain, laughters, love, joy, tears. I won't walk out on you, dotcha worry honey. With love there is a price to pay, & for you I'm willing to go in debt. I love you without knowing how, when, or where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you 'cos I knew no other way than this, where 'I' does not exist, nor 'you'. So close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. Remember this, I love you for you & who I am when I'm with you. Muahs.

PS, remember that hand sign with words I showed you tday? I meant it. :)

13th Feb, we all went Pam's place to bake. :D Had fun actually. I finally did something I've always wanted to do, for someone special. :D Heh. YAY. Thanks babes, you guys are greeeeeeeeeeeeeat! :D

11Feb, went out with Sassy. I Not Stupid Too! :D Really nice show, must catch! Did some shopping & took neos!



Sunday was boring, I was online all day. Talked to Jace in the afternoon for three hours plus. She taught me my maths homework. Bleah, she can never be a teacher. Rofl, sorry Jace. :D I love you la son. Had dinner at Uncle's fav restuarant again. Sis had some performance thingy at Kovan, I went back home first, just to call baby! :D Whee.

I can't really remember what happened. =x

REPLIES!

Prunella, Silly girl, I did not say you were. :) I miss you too! But we just caught up a little. :D Heh. Roses roses roses! xD
Xavier, Happy Valentine's Day & I love you. <3
Caroline, Hey girl, happy vday! :D Stay happy.
Natasha, Stupid la you. It's not nice okay. Like so nerd, I'll get one for you if you like. Hahha!
Cheryl, Hahha, thanks babe!
Cecilia, Hey you! :D
Steph, Yes darling, we will.! :D
NatLim, Hahah you're welcome natnat. Where got fierce la, so irritated cansxz~ HAHAHAHA.
Kriss, I tagged in yours!
Chanel, I love you bestaye!

I'll put up the URL when I've done uploading the pictures, uber slow. -.-



And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time

Cos all I need is you, My Valentine. x)

It doesn't really matters anyway,
<3,


7:28 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Friday, February 10, 2006


You'll still be my day late friend



At Mos, with Bestaye & Pammy.

I'm home early again tday. =D No one's home when I came back. Was online since then. I've finished leetingtingpamela's blog. :D
Here! Check out her blog. I'm loving her blog & she's loving me :D

School's tiring tday, not as bad as yesterday though. I skipped maths the other day 'cos of our first month & now that Mrs Ong's back, she wants to book all of us. =/ & it's immediate BETA record which means no testimonial & parents will be imformed. I don't know the importance of this testimonial shit but I think it's rather important. Hahah. Lin lao shi is back too & we had a test tday. I just scribbled a few words & off to sleep. Hahah. I didn't get back my chem test results tday 'cos Qiaos didn't come & she's supposed to take the test with Bestaye tday. >): I want my results. English & CD was fun. I love Mrs Soon. :D Wrote a lot of notes for people. Sassy, Qiaos, Bestaye, Pamo, Michy, SarahF, Alex, Jasmit & Jayshree! I got back a few too. & it somehow made me feel so happy. Hee. I prefer Fridays than Thursdays. -snorts

O level results are out tday & I saw Natasha & Meryl. <3 I miss them so much. Natasha's getting prettier okay. Idiot. Meryl thinks that I'd wear the stick-on uniform. Ewww. Rofl. After that, went to Compass to have lunch. Mos! :D Heh. SarahF, Jasmit & Alex was there too. Sassy left first. We stayed for lunch & talked a lot. :D & we took that picture up there. Left around 3pm.

Supposed to have tuition tday but tutor forgot. :D YAY! But ay wait.. That means I did no studying nor revision tday. =/ Acks. Baby's on her way home now. Poor thing, just finished her project. Seriously, stupid school. =/ She haven't been having enough sleep & the time being able to spend with baby is really very limited. Even worse than before. Hmph. Sue them. Rofl. That phone call from you just made me smile. :) I just found out that my Sony camera has got that effect thingy. Loving it. HOHOHO, I'm meeting Sassy tmr, I shall use! :D:D:D

Vday shopping, I Not Stupid Too with Sassy tmr. Baby might be coming along. :) Michy Mich's watching too, with Maylene. YAY! I'm fucking bored now & I've got the urge to call Joel & disturb him, lmao. I'm damn mean la okay. But I don't wanna disturb him. BLAH! Omg he's damn cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D WHALAU! I realised yesterday I didn't get to hear him say '_____, goodnight.' ):

Michelle Lim Jia Min,
I know you absolutely hate it when people call you your full name & I think I just did that on purpose. Hahah, I know you love Glynis & she's the top of your world. :D Don't deny Michelle. I know you agree. xP Frowning face twin! Hahah you! She was damn happy when she knows that Nel left her a note. -giggles. <3


I'm starting to get jealous of people around Nellie & I don't like.
They fucking get to see her every fucking day while I fucking don't.





Fix me to a chain around your neck and wear me like a nickel,
<3,



7:05 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Thursday, February 09, 2006


A fucking waste of my time is all that you've become

We took pictures during Chinese lesson yesterday. Lin lao shi not in school. :D JIPAK! Hahah, that's the sound Pam's phone make each time we snap. HO!


Pammy & I.


Bestaye, I & Pam.

I haven't been blogging, sors babes. Okay, I'm quite addicted to Bestaye's sors. Bah!

I'm recalling what happened on Monday..
Uhhhhhhh I had school & uhhhhhhh baby skipped school 'cos she wasn't feeling well. Sorry baby I couldn't go over to accompany you & all. Hughug, I'll make it up to you. :D Went home early & called baby. Accompanied her on the phone while she waits for the fucking doctor. It took her 2 frikkin' hours. Lovely clinic.

Then on Tuesday, school suck(when did it rock anyway?). It was a really long day & I dislike it. = Art was tiring. Some fuckers were out to screw up baby's life but no, it's not working honey. Affection, yes but it's not gonna last long. Thankyou so much bitches, all that you've done just bought two of us closer than before & I'm sure Xav learnt her lesson. Don't let me see you. I'll eyeball you if you do. >:@ -looks at Pam Did research in comp lab with Bestaye, Carla came to chat for awhile. Had art again after school. Sometimes, things just don't go the way you want them to. =/ some shit happened & Sassy & I got some shocking-NOT news from Qiaos. -winks Baby came to meet me after artttttttttttt. :D

Wednesday! Baby skipped school again 'cos I guess the sight of them just turns her off to the min. Ugh whatever. Anyhoos, she came to fetch me at school & we went t compass. Waited for Pamo & had lunch at BK. Ran back home to get my piano books & went for piano. Was thirty minutes but I can care less about it all. Met mom & godma after that. Got another red packet! :D Heh. Left after awhile, spent the rest of my time with Baby. -winks Heh reached home around 7pm.

Today! Another boring day at school. I hate Thursdays, absolutely. The timetable, especially. Argh. My damn compo got choosen for that commonwealth thing. Omg I don't want. >): But acks, I don't care. It's not like I'm gonna win anyway, because if I really do, I'll be realllllllllll guilty. Nevermind the award goes to xavierlinnnnnnnnn. :D Chinese was awesome 'cos lin lao shi isn't back yet & we did nothing. Sat around & talked. Maths was fun 'cos we did nothing again other than discussing about vday presents for special someones & our program for tmr. Had SS test & I think I'm gonna fail again. I got 2/20 for the previous & 'cos of that, I'm sitting with my dear Michy Mich. xD Tons of laughters. -frowns & smile at the same time I love you lah Michyyyyy.& thanks for being honest. :) Yknow what I meant & I appreciate it yeh? Hughug! Had english compo test & I was sleeping away until the end then I started rushing. Uber tired. Chem was fun.! We did preparation of salts. I'm looking forward to tmr's lesson & we'll get back the test results, I'm damn excited about it. Heh. Supposed to go Lasalle on saturday but I don't wanna go 'cos I went last year with Qiaosyweezy & we saw nothing much there other than big school with manymany nice art pieces. I guess I'll be shopping for vday gifts with baby & Sassy, watching I Not Stupid Toooooooooo. :D

Baby's at school now, doing her bloody project. I hope everything's fine there & it goes well. I was damn pissed with those people la, but I'm okay now I guess. Better than yesterday. Hmm, I'm dead tired. I'll go crazy with Art then I'll go to bed. Yawns!

I love to reply comments, it makes me happy to see many comments(obviously not spammers) on my blog.

REPLIES!

XAVIER, The entry is missing something & I know what you're trying to say. Don't be silly & think that I'd publish it up here 'cos I won't. Hahah. I love those late night phone calls with you though I'm uber dead tired & my eyes are dying to close but I still wanna talk to you. I love waking up & going to bed with your textes & phone calls. You know I'd be there for you for all time & I won't be like some fuckers turning their backs against you. The one who'd still stay when the world walks out on you, I would be. I told you before we'd go through thick & thin together & I'm feeling the same way as you do. I never want you to feel alone 'cos you've got me. They don't worth a penny, they're not friends. We'll see how things go okay? I'm here, I'll walk through this with you. I'm saying this again 'cos I want you to know, I want you to remember. -kiss See how much Joel resembles you now! The way he talks & all. Dialect, english, singlish chinese, malay all in. Lah, leh, lor, hor, liao. You see you seeeeeeeee! He has got the genes lah okay. Still can ALAMAK me!? & i didnt know it's wah biang. shitanahnah my ass's laughing. But I really love your brother to the max. He's damn cuteeeeeeeeeeeee. :D:D:D you'll always be my babyxav. <3
NING,
hello ning, I miss talking to you. :D chingay was so much better last year! i think there'll be a repeat, you can watch it. :D
CHERYL, hello cherylqueenie. is that what I'm supposed to call you? Hahah don't mention it. :) my pleasure! :D
XAV'S BRO, HELLO JOEL. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST PUT JOEL WHY MUST PUT XAV'S BRO LEH? I've added you on friendster & msn & seen your fugly blog. Love the basketball shit, another basketball siao. Oh yes, singing to one self isn't zi bi okay! It's not like your dearrrrrrrr sister don't sing to herself & be oblivious to the surrounding. Yeah, I don't care. I want long long one lor. Your comment really crack me up la okay. I'm like laughing in front of the screeeeeen. & you know what? You don't speak english, like your sister, both of you speak singlish. & hello MISSSSTER, I seriously think you're fucking funny. So what so what? Now big already la! Pri6 152m, Sec4 159m. Big already la! I didn't say I promised you. When did I? If that's what a gentleman's supposed to do then I guess your sister isn't one. 'cos she doesn't do that to me. HAHAHAHAHAHA!Okay I'm crapping, I'm laughing like mad & I don't know what I'm talking about. WAHAHAHAHAHA.
QIAOS, Okay I'm still thinking of your stupid Mickey kiss thingy just now during chem & that frowning face of yours during SS & that omg-so-sick smile of yours. You make Ashlee Simpson wanna LALA but you make me wanna HAHA. ROFL! Anyhoos, I'm glad that you're back & I can disturb you again! Hahah! I love you & thanks for the gifts. ;D Hughug!
PERT, oh okay, thanks. I hope everything's fine for you now. (:

Okay I'm kinda exhausted. I was laughing like crazy just now 'cos of baby's brother's comment. -shakes head Ohwells! I'm out! (:




2000 miles between us&
I guess that I'm the one to blame ):
<3,



5:32 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Sunday, February 05, 2006


Maybe one day we'll wake up & this will all just be a dream

I'm uberrrrrrr tired. -yawns
Chingay last night. :D It wasn't as good as last year. Allan came to fetch Zel & I from our palce at around 6.30pm. Brought us to meet Auntie Alex, Auntie Joan, Val, Nat, Pearlyn & Rhys. Alex drove us there with her gf & Allan drove the rest of them there. Kinda got lost & all 'cos Alex doesn't know how to get there. Stupid her. Tata Young's album was playing in her car. I think her voice is damn sexy, so is she. :D We were supposed to be seated by 7pm but we left Sengkang at around 7pm. Rofl, had a hard time looking for Mount E. Hospital carpark. Our is opposite Paragon, on the Ngee Ann City side. Got down to Lucky Plaza's underpass, got through. It's not a place to go, serious. Millions had already touched & bua-ed my ass. Fuckers. Ugh. Managed to squeeze our way through. Our seat were uber wet. Someone stole our seats cover. The two Taiwanese girls gave Joan & Zel their extra covers, how nice of them . :) Alex used brouchers to cover my seat & hers. They started the show at about 8pm & we were on tv. Allan saw 'cos he was sitting opposite the tv screen at Paragon. He had the VIP seats la, whalau. =/

Chingay ended at 9.30pm. Auntie Veron & some auntie I forgot her name came to find us. Val&Alex's brother came to find us too. Had street clubbing! Hahah, damn funnnnnn. :) Decided to go for supper. Went to Hotel Rendezvous's Coffee Club! :D Ice Mocha Vanilla, Country Pie! YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYY :]:]:] !! I was so damn hungry 'cos I only ate four slice of bread all day. Haha. Allan drove me back at around 12plus. Reached home around 1am. Waited for baby, called her around 2plus. Slept at 6.30am. & this morning, all the phones at home are ringing like mad. Ugh, including my cellllllllllllll. Damn irritating. I got a shock when the phone just rang suddenly. Hahah & that's how I woke up. & fuck, it's at 12pm. -.- I intend to sleep till 6pm in the evening, if possible, monday morning. h3h3sxz~!

I'm not having enough sleep, I'm serious. My eye bags & dark rings are showing. FUGLY FUGLY FUGLY. ): I'm leaving the hosue soon, to have dinner at Aunt's place. I'll sleep first then I can talk to baby tonight. Ugh, how. Fugly. )x

I lost my pens & I'm damn sad. I'm serious. I love my pens hell lot. )= Nevermind, I'll get them later on. Sigh. OHOHOH & baby's name was written on it. Even sadder. )): I don't know what the fuck is baby doing now & I don't know where is she.

YIP QIAO LIN, I WANNA KILL YOU NOW 'COS YOU'RE BACK & YOU'RE FARRRRRRRRRRRR TOO TIRED TO EVEN FUCKING TEXT ME. YOU KNOW I WAS FUCKING WORRIED!? I THOUGHT WHAT HAPPENED TO QIAOS WHY HAVEN'T COME BACK YET! OR SHE WANTS TO BE COME A HONGKONGER THERE & ABANDON US. ASSSSSSSSSHOLE. YOU'RE DEAD. BOTH YOU & BESTAYE'S DEAD. YOU'RE GONNA GET THAT SQUEEZEYYYYY-WUEEEEEZEY HUG FROM ME. =D MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH.




I miss you all, fucking a lot.
Sass, Qiaos, Chans & Nettes.
<3,


1:55 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Saturday, February 04, 2006


I'm always the one at fault, thanks a lot yeh

I'm not in the right mood now but it's okay. Maybe I was just now but currently, I'm not. Fuckshit. Met baby on thursday. She went polyclinic to get MC for some test. The clinic was so fucking crowded. Had lunch & went back. Sorry baby, I'll make it up to you okay. Hugs.

Met yj at the polyclinic with Sassy. Had lunch at burger king, walked around & went back at around 3.30pm. Uber early but I guess that made Mom real happy. 'Cos I've been hanging out late everyday. Hahah, she was damn nice to me yesterday. How weird. Good but I feel weird. Esp during dinner, she threw everything on my plate. Rightttttttt. Had dinner at Toa Payoh. Wanted to get magazines but couldn't find the one I wanted. Went home around 9pm. Did a lot of magazines cutting. :) Cleared my magazines & all, called baby. Talked till around 2am.

BESTAYE'S BACK! -runs around in circles SHE JUST CALLED & I MISS HER LIKE FUCK. Okay, I'm happier now. :D Baby's in school now having some darn course. Allan's coming to fetch me later. Going Chingay! Baby just called & it kinda cheered me up a little. :) Anyhoos, after Chingay, got some street clubbing or something I think. Supper then home. All planned. Baby's going pubbing tonight. Heh.

Downloading fonts, I'm kinda bored. I wanna work with Photoshop but I don't know what to do. =/ I'm feeling crappy, affected & emo. I wanna keep myself occupied so I won't think of it. I'll be fine later on. Sigh.

Qiaos, come home soon. ):
I feel like I need you all of a sudden.




We might as well be strangers,
<3,


12:33 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006


Happy first monthsary, Babyboy(:

School was crap. I can't concentrate. I daydreamt all day. Ugh, nothing gets into my head today. Study study study. Skipped SSS tday. =X Anyhoos, baby came to fetch me after school tday. (x Mom almost spoil everything but lucky she didn't. Cabbed down to Cine, wanted to watch movies but we missed the timing. >): I Not Stupid Too. Decided to walka round instead. Ate lunch, took neos. :D Shopped, played. Laughed a lot. Went to Heeren, saw Pamela & Lynne. Went back awhile after that.

Baby got us couple rings & I got her a wallet. :D YAY.

x a v ` says:
&hearts; 1st; she said nothing's forever in this crazy world. then,i realised there was when i finally met you.
( GLYNIS ) says:
=D

Italic - she wrote that. The rest was on my MSN's personal message. :D SWEEEEEEEET.

Happy 17th, Pamela. I love you, cheer up okay? Hughug!

Honey, I hope you like the present I gave you yeap. Again, happy first month to you. :D -in the ahlian voice I love you & I reallyreally do. h3h3sxz~! Darl, I'm sorry about last night. I was just kidding. I believe in you & us. Dotcha worry okay? Faith is all we gotta have! :D The past month have been really wonderful, thanks a lot baby. Loving you was like some fairytale going on. You're my Prince Charming & no one's gonna take you away from me, you'll never be replaced. Without you, I don't know what my world would be like. I don't wanna imagine, I know it's gonna be terrible I know. & you've changed honey. I realised there's quite a bit of difference in you, yknow! Hahah, I don't know in what ways but I just feel that way. :) I'll watch the movie with you, really. Remember our plans baby, we'll make it all happen okay? HUGHUG. <333

Sassy, I'm really uber sorry about today. I'll make it up to you, thanks for everything yes? I'm sorry for abandoning you for Maths SSS & the show! omg, I'm really sorry. We'll catch it probably this weekend okay? I'm really sorry la. I'll make it up to you, really! Oh & about smalllove, don't bother so much okay? I'm your plaster remember! :D & my dear broken Heart, I'll mend your wounds. I really will. Don't think too much. You've got me for all time okay? Hughug! <333

REPLIES!
angie, hey angie! thanks. :) it's really nice knowing you, babe. see you on march 11th @ SNGS!
rachael, hey babeeeeeeeeeeee. (:
michelle, hahah relax the breast man! rofl, thanks for the heart girly. i'll see you in school tmr! :D
steph, helloo sweetie. :) thanks for those tags. I love you stephhhhhhhh. <3
kwai, You!? Interesting!?!!?!? The uncle blind or what? The interesting ones are at the back please! :D:D:D Esp the one near to the window on his left. :D
prunella, hey babe, that person's gone now i guess. :D dont worry yuh. (: cny's good! :D
anne, Uh huh! Meet up soon girlie! you're missed :D
tingshan, hey babeeeee. back in your blog!
cheryl, hahahah i cant go la. :D
xavier, hey huns! :D I love youuuuuuuuuuu. <33





And make love on the floor until the camera made us,

<333,


7:15 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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